The Love That Changes Everything

When I first wrote "The Love That Changes Everything", it sat in a notebook for a while, barely legible, unfinished. It was a call to the Universe. It was not that I wanted to be loved, or feel loved, but I wanted to feel love.

Being the object of someone's loving can be sweet, fun, embarrassing, tricky.. always changing. But when I have felt love channeling through me, to someone else, I thought, that's when I am most truly alive! That's what this poem was calling in. I wanted to be a lover again. I felt empty without it. It didn't even have to be requited, I thought. I just want to feel it again before I die.

After I met my beloved, I found the unfinished poem, added some lines to 'finish' it, and sent it in a message. It was an expression of how I wanted to dive in deeply, and love without holding back anything.

Today, after reading a talk by Osho, called Sadness as Meditation (I'll post it next time), I returned to my poem and added more. Maybe it's finished now..

The Love that Changes Everything.

I want the Love that changes everything.

I am afraid, but Fear, you are now welcome in my living room.

I used to be scared of you, and tried to keep you out.

I didn’t want to sit and tremble with you.

But now I invite you: Come and tremble with Me!

Sadness, you come in too.

Let me wrap my arms around you like a long-lost friend.

Sit with Me and talk: Whatever you want to prattle on about is fine.

I too have been a prattler for years.

Anger, you are also my honoured guest.

You sometimes dance all night, waking my neighbours with the din.

But I will never tell you to be quiet.

Oh, Beloved, by the way,

If we wake you up, my guests and I,

Please know that it is because

I want the Love that changes everything.

The love that keeps me happy

Has been a false friend,

And conspired with the love that keeps me safe

To hide my heart away from me.

And I was held a prisoner

Of the love that hates change.

Beloved,

Come to me!

For I know who my true friends are now,

And together with them,

I want the Love that changes everything.